2009.1.23- Friday

Its a new year and already things have not been as wonderful as you would expect. I have felt more alone that anytime in my life. Though i am happily taken i am just unhappy with myself.. and my life.. on the 22nd i was told i could possibly have HPV and so i have to have samples taken from my cervix to be positive. I sure hope it is nothing and nothing comes of it.

Since the last time i posted, I have been to Korea, which was absolutely amazing, and i have gotten into a Stable relationship again. going on 8 months so that is an accomplishment. He is brilliant, and artist, a fabulous one at that. He brings out artist abilities in me i never thought i had, things are rocky right now with him being in Tucson at school and our not so frequent visits. However we will work through it someway and it will be fine.

I had a post from 2007 in here previously stating the importance of spending every second you can with your family and grandparents because you never know if that i will end soon. In September of 08 i lost my grandfather. He had been sick for a long time and it was time for him to go but it never stops hurting. Every time i see Spock from Star Trek i think of him. he always looked like him.

anyway ill try to keep you updated for anyone that wants to read..