2009.2.26-Thursday

Today i Nearly lost the best thing that ever happened to me. Alex was pushed to his Limit by my giving up attitude and my jealousy. Almost losing him woke me up and made me want to work harder to be better for him. I am Not giving in. If i Dont get the Apartment with my mom i will move in with Nikki and take the Bus to work.. I am aware its going to be a bit harder but its what i have to do to get by in life and i will do everything i can to make a good life for myself. He is my everything and i would jump through a Fiery hoop to be with him. I felt so dead when he almost left today. We both cried on the phone because the mere thought of being without each other was to much to us. Only 8 months and i cant see myself without him at all. He put things into perspective and i love him for that. I will give him the space he needs to grow.. and i want to grow with him. i love him more than i can even Explain to anyone.