2009.2.26-Thursday

Today i Nearly lost the best thing that ever happened to me. Alex was pushed to his Limit by my giving up attitude and my jealousy. Almost losing him woke me up and made me want to work harder to be better for him. I am Not giving in. If i Dont get the Apartment with my mom i will move in with Nikki and take the Bus to work.. I am aware its going to be a bit harder but its what i have to do to get by in life and i will do everything i can to make a good life for myself. He is my everything and i would jump through a Fiery hoop to be with him. I felt so dead when he almost left today. We both cried on the phone because the mere thought of being without each other was to much to us. Only 8 months and i cant see myself without him at all. He put things into perspective and i love him for that. I will give him the space he needs to grow.. and i want to grow with him. i love him more than i can even Explain to anyone.

2009.2.25-Wednesday

Today was probably one of the worst days i have had in a while.. I am trying to find alternative places for me to live if the Apartment application falls through. So i am Stressed about that and i Woke up Pissed of that my mom could Yet again take back that Piece of shit boyfriend of hers.. I know if we live together he will hate me and i dont care.. i will not act like i like him or act civil to a little boy that lied to my mom for 5 months and has no balls whatsoever. I am done with his bullshit but my mom is still Stupid enough to deal with it and that is her own business but she can't expect me to like him or even be civil to him because i wont. I also hate that the new girl cant ask a simple question like " does the dog need a haircut" because when i come in a two and there is a dog for me to groom and she says its just a batha dn i go to the trouble of washing it just to have the owner (whos Bf happens to be an old classmate of mine) wanted it to have a hair cut i get the blame for it.. And if i serioulsy have to clean up the Piss after her dog one more day i am going to scream.. She brings the dog to work but doesnt take it out and then leaves it in the kennel all day ITS GOING TO PISS!! Ughh i am so sick of feeling like at any moment ill be homeless and not have a place to go, Not enough money to go there, and no car to get there.. its not fun and my BF doesnt get why i am so depressed all the time and feel like a loser.

2009.2.22-Sunday

Yesterday was fun the festival was good i liked it.. Today is boring but last night i went to a family party with Nicole. We have been hanging out a lot more like we used to and i love it. I have really missed her, I mean she is my best friend. It was a good night minus the Skeeser that was all up on us and we were running away.. Though i was sick to my stomach all night and still today. But i have been eating plain foods and hopefully it will pass soon. I will get the pics from the festival and upload them on my Myspace and you can see the Epic Faggotry that was around the Matsuri Festival. anyway until then Ta- Ta

2009.2.21-Saturday

Today was a good day. I woke up pretty cranky and Alex was being lazy and it was so hard to get him out of bed more than anything. We got to the festival just in time to make fun of loads of Narutards and cosplay fails. We shopped a bit and ate, then we got some shaved ice which was good. After then we said good bye and Alex and I left to meet my dad and brother for lunch. We ate at johnny rockets and then went to Gameworks and played some games. it was really nice seeing my dad i havent seen him since Christmas day.. He gave us some money to help out with food here and also some money to get the 2nd car up and runing again.. he is amazing. he lost everything and still he is willing to help us so we dont lose everything too. I love my dad even if our relationship has changed Drastically. Anyway Alex has to leave because his mom is feeling neglected by him like he doenst come home anymore. I feel its kind of a mother not wanting to let got of her baby boy yet.. like she is not the main woman in his life so that will take time to break.. But its ok i can deal with it.I saw Kelynn today for the first time in like 2 years it was nice she is still the biggest sweetie ever.. And thanks to Justin for my awesome phone dangly.

Ill write more soon when i have more to write about.

2009.2.19-Thursday

Today was a pretty good day. Spent some time with my mom and that is always fun. Nicole had to go do family stuff so my mom took me to get my tattoo done today. i love it it shows my love for Big Bang and it is me, All my tattoos are music related so i thought i would finish it up and get that one too. i love it. Ulysis is getting very good for teaching himself to tattoo. I am very happy with it. anyway i might see my dad this weekend after the matsuri festival for lunch so that will be nice..
ill keep you updated on all of that fun stuff however my brother just bought his new house and i am super excite for them. they want to raise horses so next time i will be able to ride :D

anyway here is a pic of the new tattoo.

2009.2.18-Wednesday

Today is my 8th month anniversary with my Boyfriend and i am just not having a good day.. Not only have i been feeling sick to my stomach lately. but Since Alex's Idiotic Partner in class missed a Day of school because her Roommates' boyfriend cheated on her, He cant come back and see me this weekend and go to the Matsuri festival. Im sorry if its just your room mate and not your best friend .. GO TO CLASS if you have a Project that someone elses grade gets affected by your absence You go.. Your room mate can call her best frined or soemone else.. So since that idiot didnt go to class he has to spend the weekend he should be with me.. with her.. Stupid cunt. Anyway I am so pissed it not even funny.. Hopefully tomorrow ill be getting a new Tattoo.

Until then Bye bye

2009.2.16- Monday

This weekend was nice. The dinner went well and Alex liked his gift.. It was an Engraved set of Dog tags with " i love you, Alex" and "6-18-2008" on the other. He got me an amazing Camera . i love it i am so excited to get more pics taken on it.. Work on Sunday was amazing i Made 207$ in sales, and i made about 81$ in Commission and its about 30$ i get in my check so i am happy about that..
My cat is getting better so i have stopped worrying about him, I am sooooo Thankful for Mary and the antibiotics that she gave me for the baby kittie.. I really am happy these days, its be wonderful seeing alex so much i love being with him more than anything. And this weekend we will go to the Matsuri festival and have lots of fun.. Oh in about 2 weeks i am getting another tattoo in dedication to Big Bang so i am super excited for that.. I just bought a Big Bang shirt for 50$ crazy i know but i had to have it.. anyway.. Jon and Kate will be on soon.. See ya

2009.2.13-Friday

So today i got into a debate about my posting a picture of Kim Jong Il from team america in a forum with the title "I fucking Rove Twiright" which is how he talking the the movie and some 28 year old idiot comes in and tells me i have no respect and that i show no post things like that again and that i am rude and am being racist, Which is completely Ignorant because If American television will Broad cast such Movies and tv shows with this material they dont consider it Racist they consider it COMEDY which this moron clearly doenst understand.. Then later after her Entire high and mighty " you should do that its offensive" bullshit she calls me Dee DEE DEE which is a term used against Mentally Handicapped people. Are you kidding me this woman is ridiculous. Please get out of my forum with that bullshit if you can't at least make some sense.

anyway i got Alex a great gift but ill explain it later hehe..<33

My cat on the other hand has licked himself a new cut that is oozing puss and so i had to buy him a cone for his head.. its so sad i hate seeing him that way :(.

2009.2.12- Thursday

Today was ok.. I hate though absolutely hate that I will take in Two dogs after i have already cleaned up for the day and the dogs are Mud covered and i take them in and wash them. they were Pains too.. And the woman doesn't come until 7:10 and i don't even get a tip.. Its incredibly annoying and rude. Whatever i got my numbers up this week so that is all i care about. I get to see Alex tomorrow and spend the weekend with him, Its going to be great. Valentines day last year i spent alone, and the year before that it was rocky anyway the end of my 2 year relationship followed closely after that.. Anyway it should be great i am super excited to see him and play some Original nintendo.. :D its so cool. Though its not working as well as it used to but i mean come on its like 20 years old so of course its going to be a bit messed up. well I think ill leave it at this and ill post a pic of my Valentine in this one :D he is amazing.. 사랑해, Ich liebe Dich, 愛しています。,

我爱你。

2009.2.11-Wednesday

Work was pretty boring today. i had to wash a dog for free because it is a service dog which kind of annoys me. But i did find out that i am in good with the company now that i have brought our store to number one in Pre booking appointments. I am at 64.5% and that is good.. so now i can rest a bit easier knowing that i wont be written up this time. I made some good tips today and gave bella a bath.. its nice that my Korean is rubbing off on her. She is recognizing the words.. thats kinda cool a Bilingual dog. Anyway there is not much to say.. ill write again soon. i am going to go watch the Addams Family.

2009.2.10-Tuesday

Today was a regular boring day at work.. but it went quickly because i had a dog that was severely matted however it was worth it.. the woman was so nice and tipped me 10$ so that was great. I got off work and bought myself and my mother some ice cream :D. My dog is driving me crazy like always but she will soon have a new muzzle for home to stop her from chewing on things that should not be chewed up.. Also next month she will get fixed so that she will not be able to go into heat. life has been getting better slowly though now the issue lies with Alex.. he was Scammed out of about 700$ and i dont like when he has to worry about anything. anyway.. this is a short blog but there is not much to talk about right now.. there is only sleepy feelings and strange dreams i wish i could interpret. Ill go watch Queen of the Damned and then Nip/Tuck.

2009.2.9- Monday

This past weekend was nice. I did end up going to the Chinese Cultural center for a festival which was great and my Boyfriend bought me a dress with his Chinese new year money. He is so great, Though i was upset he had to leave to go home that night. Uhh where to begin.. I am fortunately low grade HPV so i dont have to have any more Procedures done for now. I go back in august for a check up. However home life is getting increasingly worse.. No food in the house so i had to fork over the beginning and only savings i have for college for food. It sucks but its going to be back in there soon. Work is ok i guess as far as work goes. My dreams these days are getting more and more interesting however i wake up still Tired as ever. Though the peaceful sounds of falling rain have made me doze off sooner. I love the rain.. i wish i lived in Oregon or Washington i would love it there. The green life and the constant rain. Anyway this weekend is Valentines day. Alex will be home and we will attend his grandmothers birthday dinner and i am very excited to see them again. Speaking of Birthday dinners i attended nicoles this week and it was surprisingly not as bad as i thought. I dont get along with most of her frineds much but the main reason i didnt want to attend wasnt there long.. She was only there long enough to be an idiot and then later that night start a fight on Nicoles birthday.. Im sorry but that is Low. Not that i had Much respect for that person to begin with but oh well she can live in her fantasy world until someoenm rips her into reality on day.. And my poor cat got beat up today.. :( he has two deep puncture wounds in his chest.. its so sad..


Hope everyone if anyone reads this thing have a good week.

2009.2.3-Tuesday

Today was just another boring day. Crazy dreams, Waking up to the house in shambles due to my annoying dim witted puppy, Bella. I made breakfast and then watched a movie.. Got ready for work and then once there i filled out reminders for bath Specials for me hopefully, so i will have more dogs in the week. Then magically i had a walk in today. it was so nice to have one dog to do. Now that i have had the Work ultimatum it has really gotten me more motivated to get more dogs in there. I got a Phone calls at 5 for another dog but he couldnt find the rabies info and i didnt have a card for his Pitbull Bella.. so i didnt get to do that one.. Maybe he will come in tomorrow and ill have another dog.. Someone has to be looking out for me because i have so far gotten more dogs in and that is great for me. anyway. i came homeand got some food and talked to an old friend and now i am Just waiting to Watch Nip Tuck and go to bed. I am still Playing over outfits in my head for Valentines day but i hope something will come to me. Ta ta for now.

2009.2.2- Monday

Today was a good day at work.. i had two dogs scheduled and i got a walk in so that was Great for the day.. to meet Quota ill need 7 more dogs in 2 days. which is Kinda unrealistic but hopefully someone will come in. I got a Doberman which i love named Mogley.. and a Pitbull i love name Pebbles. and then some mutt named Abbey. Alex texted me that his Grandmothers Birthday was on Valentines day and we would have to attend that dinner instead of our own but i dont mind i love being with his family. And it is still Semi formal so i can wear my dress :D. When i asked if it was ok if i went he replied "Uhhh duh, You're my Wife" it was the sweetest thing ever and i love when he Says things like that to me.. it fills my heart with so much love. :D

anyway, hope you enjoy this boring blog.. :D

2009.2.1- Sunday

This weekend was amazing.. Alex came home and stayed the whole weekend. Friday we hung out and went to see Zack and Miri make a porno at the dollar theater. But before he got there me and mom went shopping and i got some nice clothes and a great shirt that says " I kissed a vampire and i liked it". yea i know im Ghey. Anyway i woke up early Saturday and got all pretty, then we went to Red Robbin and shared a Salmon Burger which was of course Delicious. then decided to go to Chandler mall and check times for The Univited and that was starting as we got there with about 5 minutes to spare so we caught it and it was good. I like movies that have twists.. even though it was not a scary movie i always jump because loud noises scare me more than seeing things that are dead. So we got out of the movie and went to look for an Eyebrow ring retainer for Alex and then went home. We made dinner together and played some Devil May Cry and went to sleep but it was a Very very good weekend.. Though today starts my 2 weeks of hell that i have to get a lot of dogs in for grooming. hopefully it will turn out better than i think it will. i dont want to get written up for doing nothing wrong.