2009.4.8-Wednesday

Lately things have been Rocky again with me and Alex.. his lack of time for me or anything outside of Brad and Blake is really starting to annoy me. I am just going to let him do whatever he wants until i cant take anymore of the crap and i end up leaving.. If i wanted to be ignored i would have staying with Jae My Korean boyfriend before Alex. I hardly see him as it is and now that him and blake are like Lovers its hard to even talk to him.. i am making attempts to be civil with blake but there are things about him that i just dont like and know if i can deal with all the time. For one he has what i wish i did and i hate ther because i should be first he should be second but its not that way at all. I have been PMSing like no ones business and i feel depressed so that doenst help..Not to mention the Awful cramps i have. Friday we will leave for Cali and that should be nice.. Not only am i sexually frustrated that will have to wait for at least 2 more weeks which is sucky..

i just wish Alex knew how it feels to be second in my book.. then maybe he would stop putting blake first.

2009.4.2-Thursday

Well i escaped a prank for April fools day, which is nice because i hate it. I have been ok the past week a bit naggy and thats is making my boo sad and i hate that i am that way. i am working on myself but its a slow Process. i did witness a big fat man Steal a large bag of dog food yesterday at work.. but by teh time i got to the cashier to see if he did ring out he was gone and i didnt get the plate number.. Hopefully i will catch him next time , stupid loser. the Cali trip is next week and i am excited but for a while after i move i dont like to leave the house i just like to nest like as if when i come home from where i am going it will be gone.. It should be fun ill be with Alex and he can see my old world which will be fun. We should have a very good time.