2009.5.25-Monday

Its been WAY over a month since the last entry in here. Not much is going on in my life.. I have gotten all my school supplies almost for Groom school. I am pretty excited. i will go up to Full time at work and i will be making a lot more and possibly have to lose my Health insurance and pay for my own but that wont be to bad. However with making more money ill be able to get a car and an apartment with nicole so that is a HUGE plus that i am very excited for. This summer has begun and Alex is moving in for it YAY. he moves in Fully this weekend and i am super excited. Next month is our One year anniversary and that means the world to me. i still have to figure out a good gift to get him but i will find something amazing that he will like. My dog is getting better at being potty trained so that is good i am excited that she is learning. She gets her First hair cut next weekend with will be pretty funny. Friends are great as always, And family is doing good, my dad got an apartment i am happy he is back on his feet..
Today will be a long day, hopefully a good one.. and then Alex will be here to cuddle me tonight to watch Jon and Kate + 8 :D

ill write soon.

2009.4.8-Wednesday

Lately things have been Rocky again with me and Alex.. his lack of time for me or anything outside of Brad and Blake is really starting to annoy me. I am just going to let him do whatever he wants until i cant take anymore of the crap and i end up leaving.. If i wanted to be ignored i would have staying with Jae My Korean boyfriend before Alex. I hardly see him as it is and now that him and blake are like Lovers its hard to even talk to him.. i am making attempts to be civil with blake but there are things about him that i just dont like and know if i can deal with all the time. For one he has what i wish i did and i hate ther because i should be first he should be second but its not that way at all. I have been PMSing like no ones business and i feel depressed so that doenst help..Not to mention the Awful cramps i have. Friday we will leave for Cali and that should be nice.. Not only am i sexually frustrated that will have to wait for at least 2 more weeks which is sucky..

i just wish Alex knew how it feels to be second in my book.. then maybe he would stop putting blake first.

2009.4.2-Thursday

Well i escaped a prank for April fools day, which is nice because i hate it. I have been ok the past week a bit naggy and thats is making my boo sad and i hate that i am that way. i am working on myself but its a slow Process. i did witness a big fat man Steal a large bag of dog food yesterday at work.. but by teh time i got to the cashier to see if he did ring out he was gone and i didnt get the plate number.. Hopefully i will catch him next time , stupid loser. the Cali trip is next week and i am excited but for a while after i move i dont like to leave the house i just like to nest like as if when i come home from where i am going it will be gone.. It should be fun ill be with Alex and he can see my old world which will be fun. We should have a very good time.

2009.3.30-Monday

ok so today i was in a Mildly good mood until a woman with a Boxer comes in and asks for a Nail trim and says that the last person to do it Filed them down too( which is Bullshit no one does that).. she then says that she doesnt have enough to get a bath so just the nails. Like always you Dont leave the dog in there for a nail trim you stay there and wait while we do it.. He was huge so i cut them on the floor.. I also to be nice Took the time to File the dogs nails too.. he was acting up and she said we will forget about the back ones he is being bad.. so i wrote the ticket GAVE her a 3$ off Coupon, said have a good day and got NO response. Hayley comes in and sounds infuriated and tells me that she is complaining that she Shouldnt have to pay at all cuz she " Helped me do my Job" , " she had to hold the dog" Ummmm No this lying little Bitch didnt do anything to that extent. It was Ridiculous that even Evan wanted nothing to do with her and told her " lady look just forget it and Leave. So she did.. I refuse to do her dog anymore i will remember him and her and Not help them next time.. Fuck that noise.

Annoyed annoyed annoyed..

This weekend was nice i saw Alex he was sweet.. he had a tendency to not listen to me which annoys me so much. but its ok he will learn..

2009.3.24- Monday

Today was nice. i felt pretty good all day that is a big change.
I also worked and at work i did one dog that's owner's last name was the same as mine so that was cool. Ludo is getting A lot more Friendly with me and that is very nice.. i love that little guy. Today we also got a Betta fish and We named him Master Betta :D . After work we got ice cream like we do every tuesday and then ate dinner and went to the Jacuzzi it was so nice. I am very excited to see Alex this weekend. Also My room in Complete.. the boys came by and helped me get the Canopy up above the room and its like home now.. anyway ill write more later. :D

2009.3.23-Monday

lots has been happening, Alex had Spring break and i saw him lots and he was sweet and bought me Flowers for our Nine Month anniversary. Then on the weekend we moved, It took two days to get everything and my stupid Canopy will not hang int the ceiling because it is Concrete which is nice but now we have to drill them in to get it to hang which i will do because its hard to sleep without the Canopy. Friends came out and helped us move and i want to thank them all, Isaac, Josiah, Lucy, Justin, Nicole, Tyler. You are all amazing and i am so lucky to have you fools around. Cable was hooked up today and now everything is getting put together.. My mom is still wasting her time with Bob which is not a surprise.. but i am getting sick of it. oh well.. Also today i added a new member to the family, A baby hairless Rat named Ludo.

2009.3.16- Monday

Recently things have been ok.. i am still randomly sick and i dont know what is the cause of it but its very annoying. Me and Alex are on better terms but he still tends to mess up like this past weekend. I am pushing toward Groom school more and more which is nice, I could use the money to go to MCC that i make Grooming and still have a Great job while doing it. I Am seriously tired of people Pretending they know ANYTHING about Korean music and culture.. People talking like they will ever meet or have ANY chance with any member or the band/ Group. In some cases i am positive that they would NEVER sleep with you even if they were drunk.. Sad , Mean but completely true. And the whole watching every Video they ever post is ridiculous. i mean yes i LOVE korean music but i also have a job and a life outside of the internet and such. People that dont even attempt to learn the language piss me off the most.. i have been teaching myself korean for almost 2 years now and have been to the country so i kind of already have the upper hand on most of you. So give it a rest and stop trying to show me up its pathetic and you need to get your own life and hobbies and stop copying mine. Again this is not to everyone and ill give you a hint the person isnt on my Myspace Friends list but she does live near me. Anyway.. hope you all have a good week. I move this saturday :D

2009.3.11- Wednesday,

Lately things have been very tense between me and Alex. We have been fighting like cats and dogs and its mainly over his Choices and his lack of communication as well as understanding.. Its something we will work through but its going to take a lot of time.. we are of different ages and mind sets and he is a boy so clearly he will forget a lot of things and over look them easily. Yesterday i was in a good mood and donated money to a deaf man that was selling sing language education cards to earn a living so i gave him some money and got one of the cards.. that night i must have eaten something that made me really sick i felt over heated and felt as though i would throw up. I didnt get to sleep till late.. and then was up at like 6 or 7 because i had the worst cramps i have had in a long time.. They would not let me go back to sleep at all.. it was awful.. Then at about 8 i get a call from Amy at work and the new girl has called in sick.. its super annoying that new people think they can just take time off when they are in their Probationary period at work.. She already has ALL of next week of which she should not have been able to do.. its so annoying.. i has to work an 11-7 which i have never worked more than 6 hours before and i dont like to because i get really tired and really ill working to much.. However i am thinking of starting groom school in august i think it is a better route in the long run and ill be able to make the money i need to pay for regular college by grooming.. Anyway Amy was a sweetie and bought me lunch for coming in early and that Arby's tasted better than it ever has.. oh man.. well ill write again soon. Bye bye

2009.3.4-wednesday

Why does Arizona SUCK so much.. God I want to move away from this State so badly and one day i will. I am thinking Washington or Oregon.. I love the rain and i CANT stand the heat anymore. Anyway today was boring as always just cleaned the groom salon and went home. Now i am hungry Sick and just wanting a fun and exciting life that i cant get here. I think ill Pack up some stuff tonight. I mean we move in about 2 weeks. the only bad thing is that the Cable and internet wont be on for a few days after we get there and that is BALLS. the only life i have is on the internet sadly and without it there is nothing. I guess ill just set up my room and watch DVD's or something. Swim,work out, Hell ill even go to the library if i have to, to use the internet. See ya soon when something else happens.

2009.3.3-Tuesday

I went to the doctor Last night and waited for an hour to talk to the doctor then got my prescription and left. As always its another UTI and i am so sick of being sick. Right now my back is in pain and my Chest for some reason that i dont understand. Work was boring and i am tired today. I am still set in my mind that Spring break sucks and i am tired of changes being made. But as Nicole called it Alex will run home to his mommy and then leave for his Fun Vactaion that i cant be apart of. I really am tired of it.. It almost sucks being so in love with an 18 year old. I dunno i love the boy to death but this never seeing him crap is getting really old.
Oh well .. I got my pics back from my New awesome camera so ill post a nice pic of my Cat HISA.

TTYL

2009.3.1-Sunday

We found out yesterday that we were approved for our apartment so that is a big, big weight off or our shoulders. Tomorrow i have to call the doctor and make an appointment, Another UTI.
But lately things have been falling into place and i love that. I am happy with things and i hope soon once all the crazy work is done Alex will be happy again. I miss him.. Whenever he is gone its hard to want to do anything i love his company, and having him make me laugh. He is my everything and i know i want him always.
Anyway ill put up some pics of the new apartment soon :D

2009.2.26-Thursday

Today i Nearly lost the best thing that ever happened to me. Alex was pushed to his Limit by my giving up attitude and my jealousy. Almost losing him woke me up and made me want to work harder to be better for him. I am Not giving in. If i Dont get the Apartment with my mom i will move in with Nikki and take the Bus to work.. I am aware its going to be a bit harder but its what i have to do to get by in life and i will do everything i can to make a good life for myself. He is my everything and i would jump through a Fiery hoop to be with him. I felt so dead when he almost left today. We both cried on the phone because the mere thought of being without each other was to much to us. Only 8 months and i cant see myself without him at all. He put things into perspective and i love him for that. I will give him the space he needs to grow.. and i want to grow with him. i love him more than i can even Explain to anyone.

2009.2.25-Wednesday

Today was probably one of the worst days i have had in a while.. I am trying to find alternative places for me to live if the Apartment application falls through. So i am Stressed about that and i Woke up Pissed of that my mom could Yet again take back that Piece of shit boyfriend of hers.. I know if we live together he will hate me and i dont care.. i will not act like i like him or act civil to a little boy that lied to my mom for 5 months and has no balls whatsoever. I am done with his bullshit but my mom is still Stupid enough to deal with it and that is her own business but she can't expect me to like him or even be civil to him because i wont. I also hate that the new girl cant ask a simple question like " does the dog need a haircut" because when i come in a two and there is a dog for me to groom and she says its just a batha dn i go to the trouble of washing it just to have the owner (whos Bf happens to be an old classmate of mine) wanted it to have a hair cut i get the blame for it.. And if i serioulsy have to clean up the Piss after her dog one more day i am going to scream.. She brings the dog to work but doesnt take it out and then leaves it in the kennel all day ITS GOING TO PISS!! Ughh i am so sick of feeling like at any moment ill be homeless and not have a place to go, Not enough money to go there, and no car to get there.. its not fun and my BF doesnt get why i am so depressed all the time and feel like a loser.

2009.2.22-Sunday

Yesterday was fun the festival was good i liked it.. Today is boring but last night i went to a family party with Nicole. We have been hanging out a lot more like we used to and i love it. I have really missed her, I mean she is my best friend. It was a good night minus the Skeeser that was all up on us and we were running away.. Though i was sick to my stomach all night and still today. But i have been eating plain foods and hopefully it will pass soon. I will get the pics from the festival and upload them on my Myspace and you can see the Epic Faggotry that was around the Matsuri Festival. anyway until then Ta- Ta

2009.2.21-Saturday

Today was a good day. I woke up pretty cranky and Alex was being lazy and it was so hard to get him out of bed more than anything. We got to the festival just in time to make fun of loads of Narutards and cosplay fails. We shopped a bit and ate, then we got some shaved ice which was good. After then we said good bye and Alex and I left to meet my dad and brother for lunch. We ate at johnny rockets and then went to Gameworks and played some games. it was really nice seeing my dad i havent seen him since Christmas day.. He gave us some money to help out with food here and also some money to get the 2nd car up and runing again.. he is amazing. he lost everything and still he is willing to help us so we dont lose everything too. I love my dad even if our relationship has changed Drastically. Anyway Alex has to leave because his mom is feeling neglected by him like he doenst come home anymore. I feel its kind of a mother not wanting to let got of her baby boy yet.. like she is not the main woman in his life so that will take time to break.. But its ok i can deal with it.I saw Kelynn today for the first time in like 2 years it was nice she is still the biggest sweetie ever.. And thanks to Justin for my awesome phone dangly.

Ill write more soon when i have more to write about.

2009.2.19-Thursday

Today was a pretty good day. Spent some time with my mom and that is always fun. Nicole had to go do family stuff so my mom took me to get my tattoo done today. i love it it shows my love for Big Bang and it is me, All my tattoos are music related so i thought i would finish it up and get that one too. i love it. Ulysis is getting very good for teaching himself to tattoo. I am very happy with it. anyway i might see my dad this weekend after the matsuri festival for lunch so that will be nice..
ill keep you updated on all of that fun stuff however my brother just bought his new house and i am super excite for them. they want to raise horses so next time i will be able to ride :D

anyway here is a pic of the new tattoo.

2009.2.18-Wednesday

Today is my 8th month anniversary with my Boyfriend and i am just not having a good day.. Not only have i been feeling sick to my stomach lately. but Since Alex's Idiotic Partner in class missed a Day of school because her Roommates' boyfriend cheated on her, He cant come back and see me this weekend and go to the Matsuri festival. Im sorry if its just your room mate and not your best friend .. GO TO CLASS if you have a Project that someone elses grade gets affected by your absence You go.. Your room mate can call her best frined or soemone else.. So since that idiot didnt go to class he has to spend the weekend he should be with me.. with her.. Stupid cunt. Anyway I am so pissed it not even funny.. Hopefully tomorrow ill be getting a new Tattoo.

Until then Bye bye

2009.2.16- Monday

This weekend was nice. The dinner went well and Alex liked his gift.. It was an Engraved set of Dog tags with " i love you, Alex" and "6-18-2008" on the other. He got me an amazing Camera . i love it i am so excited to get more pics taken on it.. Work on Sunday was amazing i Made 207$ in sales, and i made about 81$ in Commission and its about 30$ i get in my check so i am happy about that..
My cat is getting better so i have stopped worrying about him, I am sooooo Thankful for Mary and the antibiotics that she gave me for the baby kittie.. I really am happy these days, its be wonderful seeing alex so much i love being with him more than anything. And this weekend we will go to the Matsuri festival and have lots of fun.. Oh in about 2 weeks i am getting another tattoo in dedication to Big Bang so i am super excited for that.. I just bought a Big Bang shirt for 50$ crazy i know but i had to have it.. anyway.. Jon and Kate will be on soon.. See ya

2009.2.13-Friday

So today i got into a debate about my posting a picture of Kim Jong Il from team america in a forum with the title "I fucking Rove Twiright" which is how he talking the the movie and some 28 year old idiot comes in and tells me i have no respect and that i show no post things like that again and that i am rude and am being racist, Which is completely Ignorant because If American television will Broad cast such Movies and tv shows with this material they dont consider it Racist they consider it COMEDY which this moron clearly doenst understand.. Then later after her Entire high and mighty " you should do that its offensive" bullshit she calls me Dee DEE DEE which is a term used against Mentally Handicapped people. Are you kidding me this woman is ridiculous. Please get out of my forum with that bullshit if you can't at least make some sense.

anyway i got Alex a great gift but ill explain it later hehe..<33

My cat on the other hand has licked himself a new cut that is oozing puss and so i had to buy him a cone for his head.. its so sad i hate seeing him that way :(.

2009.2.12- Thursday

Today was ok.. I hate though absolutely hate that I will take in Two dogs after i have already cleaned up for the day and the dogs are Mud covered and i take them in and wash them. they were Pains too.. And the woman doesn't come until 7:10 and i don't even get a tip.. Its incredibly annoying and rude. Whatever i got my numbers up this week so that is all i care about. I get to see Alex tomorrow and spend the weekend with him, Its going to be great. Valentines day last year i spent alone, and the year before that it was rocky anyway the end of my 2 year relationship followed closely after that.. Anyway it should be great i am super excited to see him and play some Original nintendo.. :D its so cool. Though its not working as well as it used to but i mean come on its like 20 years old so of course its going to be a bit messed up. well I think ill leave it at this and ill post a pic of my Valentine in this one :D he is amazing.. 사랑해, Ich liebe Dich, 愛しています。,

我爱你。